It is a new dawn of time, a new decade welcomed me this morning.
I am another year wiser, older, & experienced.
Time is proving itself to me just how quickly it comes and the same as it goes.
Stepping into my 30th year around the sun & I am beyond words.
I’m overwhelmed with gratitude of who I’ve become.
All I can reflect back on is just how proud I am of myself.
I love that learning & growing has been such a special passion that I’ve upheld.
I wouldn’t be who I am today if not for my brokenness, barrenness, & imperfections.
My history rewrites my future as God walks me back through my childhood & repaints it with His redemption.
I’ve been told more than once in the last year or so of how bold & courageous I am. Quite frankly, I don’t feel like it. How crazy is it though, that I’ve been asking for courage in the last 3 years? It’s manifested itself differently on me than I had expected. Vulnerability being brave & embracing change being courageous.
Isn’t it hard to see how we grow over time? Those who are closest to us see the proof or lack of change in our lives.
I often wonder about who I am becoming & how God sees me as a finished product, a masterpiece at the end of this life. How do I look & what kind of a person am I?
I hope to charge onwards into my 30’s with even more courage than before. I hope to find more love for myself, possibly a start to building a family, & fun adventures.
I cannot wait to see what areas of my life bravery will be found when I look back to this very moment.
Last year, I wrote myself a note and inscribed it here on my blog, and so I want to continue on in that tradition. So here goes.
I hope you continue to brave the hardest days. May you never allow anyone to shrink you back or box you in from what God has already divinely called you to. I hope all your dreams and visions come to fruition as you unravel another chapter of life. I pray that you will continue to grow in your faith & trust in the Lord. May you become your greatest friend before you prioritize others. Plan a solo trip, watch a movie alone, or spend some time in silence surrounded by your lush indoor garden. These are the things that I’ve learned about you that you so desperately need. I hope you learn to speak your mind in truth and love. That you are continuing on your journey to healing your childhood wounds and face them courageously. I pray that your ministry will continue to grow as you tend to it accordingly. I hope that you are using every ounce of creativity in you daily & that you find a way to share it with the world. May you walk in alignment to who God sees you as. You are so loved and such a blessing to all. May you know that your worth does not come from your deeds or acts of service. Your worth comes from the Maker of the Heavens & the Earth. I pray that the Lord will surround you with women that will build you up as you continue to bloom. Friends who will also be a steady place for you to land on & women you can pour into too. Don’t just keep all that wisdom and knowledge to yourself. Know that you can build others up too. I pray that you harness the strength it takes to face hard conversations. That you fight fiercely with your inner critic to create the life that God has for you. One filled with joy, peace, & love. Filled with community, intimacy, & vulnerability. One that is vibrant and overflowing with hope. I love you so much! See you in a year!
29 Year Old Self
Keep loving & creating.
Photography from Girl Trip