"A day will come when the story inside you will want to breathe on its own.
That's when you'll start writing." --Sarah Noffke
These words ring true to my life.
For so long, I didn't think my story mattered. I didn't believe there was any depth or let alone beauty in it. All I saw was darkness, hopelessness, and question marks EVERYWHERE. Nothing made sense & I just couldn't understand how God would ever bring purpose into my life. I trusted Him but probably never truly believed that something good could ever come out of my life story.
But you know what? In the past 6 years, I battled with the idea of sharing my story. I didn't feel confident nor did I feel safe sharing the utmost broken parts of my fragile heart. I'm not even sure when exactly it was that I had chosen to embrace my story. I think it came out of a cry for help. No, I know it was out of my loneliness and desire for community. A space that I could be transparent, fully-raw with what was going on in my soul.
Writing has always been a part of my life up until I got married & started focusing all my energy on surviving. But in a season where I felt like I had no one, I began to journal and write again. Whether it was questions, fears, anger, or prayers. I was finally externalizing what I had been suppressing inside all to myself. Off and on, I'd write but fear would always quickly come rushing in and remind me that my words would never make a difference. They would never change my circumstance.
Fear reminded me constantly that my story wasn't worth writing.
In the midst of warring off the mental attacks from fear, I believe God allowed me to acquire perseverance and confidence. My story began to break through and speak for itself. It somehow became every breath that I took. And over time, fear's voice got smaller. I believe that even before time, God had already instilled within each of us, a beautifully-unmatched-extraordinary & unimaginable redemption story. All it needs is time, perseverance, love, and ownership.
Your story matters. Take ownership of what God is doing in and through you. You may not know it, but there is a revolution that He is wanting to use your story for. Trust it. Embrace your story, share it courageously, and know that you're not alone. There is bound to be an army of wounded warriors that need your story in order to revive them. In your brokenness, God multiplies the healing miracle.
If ever you need someone to listen, I'm here. And if you ever feel called to share your beautiful story, I'm more than willing to help. Click on Share Your Story when you're ready.